POSTED ON Friday, November 27, 2015 @ 8:18 PM \\
School has not been enjoyable thus far. It has not been ever since many months ago. The thought of school makes me feel so down. I can't point out exactly what it is. There is something bothering me kind of. Friends? Lectures? Modules? Assignments? Food? Bus? 

I know I cannot expect everything to be perfect. Of course there's ups and downs to almost everything. But there is just something about the thought of "school" itself gives me the bad vibes. I tried. But it's the same.

I've got about 3 more months left and I a just counting down the days. Something about it is not quite right. But I'm trying making the most out of it.

Gratitude? Maybe I'm not thankful enough to be given the chance? Surely not. 

But over the years..... that positivity in me in slowing dying down. I can feel it. And to be honest, I don't like feeling like shit. But that's how I always feel, on the days that I have school, or rather, in school, on the way and back from school. Once I'm home, I do think a tiny bit about that something which is bothering me, but I feel perfectly normal right after. 

I don't know. It's making me stuck in the rut. I want and need to move on. I doubt anybody will be interested to listen.