When I was in my teens, I always thought I will settle down in my mid twenties, specifically at 25 years of age. I am the type of girl who has planned her whole life ahead. Names of future children, how many I want, the colour scheme of my wedding, the type of wedding dress, how I want to decor my house and my bedroom, countries I'd like to visit, my dream car (but, about taking a driver's license) and the list just goes on. It's rather dreamy, to be honest. But I just like to plan and plan ahead.

When I just started my first full-time job, I thought that my life was settled. It was going according to plan, or as I thought so myself. But as the years passed, I felt the need to upgrade and improve myself hence, quitting my job, and enrolled myself to study full-time. I have always felt like there is something amiss in my life.

At the current state of my life right now, I actually felt disoriented. Have been feeling this way for several years now. Looking at my peer's achievements, relationship status, and so on, I felt so backward.

After reading an online article yesterday entitled "The Struggle Towards Gratitude", it made me ponder and it also helped me reflect upon my low spirits. Gratitude is actually a simple concept: Be thankful for what you have. Yes, I prayed and thanked Allah for all the blessings he has bestowed upon me regularly. As mentioned, it is simple and it just need me to think and live simply. Why complicate life with unnecessary thoughts and make myself so miserable? Just be thankful, for what I have. I don't really state out my resolution shit out for everyone to know, but, besides wanting to just be happy, I'd like to practice gratitude. Besides, these two does go hand in hand too. How can I feel genuinely happy if I don't practice gratitude, right?

So be grateful, think of the good in things, think positive, think of what made me smile, take conscious effort to notice things. Essentially, to be consistent in giving thanks.